I'M IRRESPOSIBLY MAD FOR YOU.

When you lose someone you have absolute, pure, true and utter love for. Because you miss them every single day, you think about anything and everything, you find out that your favorite things are the one’s that remind you of them, because not only did you understood, but felt the true meaning of love; and most important, what truly is beautiful in this world. You just learn, grow and develop so much, for and because of them. As a human, sometimes everything might not be possible, but when you have that one person, you’ll make ANYTHING possible. 

It truly sucks, there’s only a few things we absolutely love in this life, we count them with our fingers. As much as you keep yourself busy, as steady as life can get, the truth of the matter is, they’re everywhere, because they make up who you are, in every way possible. Temptation will always be dangerous, but the temptation of wanting to talk to that someone, to reach the phone, to type their name, to make that click, to be at the same place they are, anything to get a little piece of them, is the one that can drive you absolutely crazy. 

As much as you try and convince yourself that you should move on, that you deserve better, you know deep inside it’s a lie. Because you’ve had the best, the one and only feeling that you’ll experience once, your heart belongs to them, ultimately, “the heart wants, what the heart wants.”

 People search, dig, and travel within life to find this person: The love of your life. Hundred’s of reasons to be angry and disappointed at them, thousands as to why they make you happy, millions to love them, but only one, to be with them. 

It truly sucks, to not have you, to wake up without you… to live without you. But I’m still holding on.

Just a thought, just a feeling, just a little piece of faith in writing;
I miss you, 
I love you.

By Gabriel Davis

everythingishilarious:

and I will remember your small room
the feel of you
the light in the window
your records
your books
our morning coffee
our noons our nights
our bodies spilled together
sleeping
the tiny flowing currents
immediate and forever
your leg my leg
your arm my arm
your smile and the warmth
of you
who made me laugh
again.

Bukowski

(Source: negafibonacci, via ladycigarettes)

Keep counting the blessings! 
My baby is finally coming home after 2 and half months of not seeing each other. Last time I saw him was Halloween weekend and the hardest thing was to hop on a plane back to Reno. I absolutely love this boy with my entire heart, he’s my partner in crime, my best friend, the one that loves and knows me the most. This will be our third Christmas together and I can’t wait to finally be with him!
YET, My family who I haven’t seen in 4 years is coming to Reno to spend the holidays too! I’m beyond blessed and thankful for all this good karma going on :) I can finally see my cousins again and behave like the old days, like dumbasses. Plus, My Miggs gets to finally meet them after all this time :) I never thought this day would come, where he could really meet the most important people in my life, my entire family. We are all spreaded apart around the world, and the fact that we can all reunite again, plus him, a new member is beyond thrilling. I’m sure they’ll love him as much as I do and I’m also sure this will be one of the holiday weekends in a lifetime.

FEELS GOOD.

Thank you, God.